the score is being KEPT, ok?
Hard truth: My body and I have been at odds too much lately.
It’s been months at this point, and the body that carries me hasn’t been up to the job it seems. My brain is foggy when I really need it to cooperate. My limbs get achy and tired for seemingly no reason (real reason: MS). I can’t tell what I need physically most of the time, but I’m acutely aware of a need somewhere that isn’t being met. The constant self-scanning and questions that lead to no answers wear me down. If I’m being frank, I don’t even like this body all the time anymore. Sometimes, I don’t even know if I love it. MS is hard, and so life is hard even though most things seem to be going my way lately. And on top of the MS, grief sits on my chest with its full weight around this time of year, and Fall/Winter ’22 has offered little change in that tradition.
So, I guess you could say that my body is really keeping the score right now lol.
Hope this post finds the score to be in your favor. <3
